Changes

Sometimes you just need a change and I think I'm in need of one. I don't know why all of a sudden, but I need one. I think that I might need a grade change, after 5 years in first grade I think it's time. It could be that one of my best friends at work is leaving for another school! Ahh ... what am I gonna do without her?! Go crazy, I think. I don't know but somethings gotta give, I've only been teaching five years. It's too soon to be burnt out!

I've also had several people tell me lately that "I seem to be better" .... aka I'm not breaking down about baby issues all the time. And I really am better - my brother even invited a pregnant friend over to my house last weekend and I didn't cry at all! Here's the deal. We don't have 12 grand. We are so in debt from all of the trying that it will take us forever to pay it all off. So I guess in my mind I have come to terms with the fact that I may never be a mom. Does it make me sad, yes. But what can I do about it?!